Monday, April 25, 2005

Nervousness

I know that in 10 mins I have to go home and finish writing the presentation I started writing on Saturday morning. I think I'm nervous about doing it.

It's my 2nd presentation this term and I'm not sure that it'll be any good. I think that I could probably get away with it, but then I realised it is to a whole class of older people. All the other presentations I've ever done are to a smaller seminar.

Maybe that’s why I chose to do it so late in the year. Oh well, it has to be done and I have to get a mark.


Blogger have introduced the 'recover post' feature, and I'm not sure I like it. I haven't had to use it yet, but I have noticed how slow typing has become as the cookie system deals with saving each individual letter. Half my sentences take an extra half a second to appear. I maybe annoyed because my attention span is minimal right now, but it doesn't help if you are teaching yourself to touch type!

Anyway, I'll stop complaining now and tell you how my 'Did Jesus exist?' talk went. All in all it was really good. I have enjoyed working with Charlie and the TGI’s for the last 2 or so years. I realised how much I love getting excited about Jesus. He’s amazing! I hope that they went away thinking about who Jesus is and how they know him; they just need to apply him to their own lives.

I even asked them what they thought of me. I got one negative answer, and they don’t recognise me as a leader with out prompting. I couldn’t work out if that was positive or negative. But the idea was that they know me because I’m there, Jesus was there too. Putting the Bible in to their lives inspires me so much.

I wasn’t really challenged when I was younger, but I do relish challenges. I love God because he wants me to feel uncomfortable. I love God because he will comfort me when it all goes wrong.

It has been a good few days. Just work from university to do now. The next time I write about TGI’s I will no longer have dissertation issues, because I’ll have handed it in!

5 comments:

Chris said...

I think the fact they didn't say you were a leader is because to them that's a given.

They first knew you as a leader and most, whenever they think about you in the future (and they will...) will see you as their former youth leader. So I think it's positive because they respect you as an authoritive figure.

Did that make any sense at all?

Chris said...

oh... and the negative comment? It's because that person IS what he said you are... which is why he said it :o)

Karen said...

Thanks for the re-assurance Chris.

I like the idea that people say stuff about you because that is who they are any way. Has made this last week make a lot of sense. Definitely true for a couple of people I know.

I hope I've left something positive for the TGI's to hold on to. Very sad to leave and no longer have the chance to lead a cell with you - with the faces, the eyebrows and the comments that mean nothing to 14 year olds but have us in stitches!

Chris said...

:o) hahaha....

But it's not only 11 - 14's who have no idea what we're talking about!

John Cowart said...

Dear Ms Karen,
I came across your blog as a blind link from one my son keeps. Your approach to the existence of Jesus and your comment in one entry about earlier Christians having an easier time witnessing intrigued me.
Asking questions and struggling with them is witnessing. Hang in there. You are certainly on the right track.

Sincerely,
John Cowart
Jacksonville, Florida, US