Hrmph! I just wrote something really great and the server crashed! Oh I'm so annoyed with the internet.
Anyway, The long and short of it was that God's got something big for me but I can't peer over his fingers and see because I'm really scared. I'm sitting in his hand at the moment! I'm just thinking about how hard it could be for me over the next year. But also thinking if everthing is in Gods plan then he'll put people around who can help me through it.
I also was talking about running away from God - not a good thing, look at what Jonah went through! Yeah, I'm gonna try not to run away from Gods plan for me and if he asks me to do something I will definitely not be half-hearted about it!